i’m having a huge amount of trouble concentrating today. i’ve done next to nothing work wise, and can’t seem to get motivated to change that.
i’m exhausted.
i’m frustrated.
i’m grumpy.
none of those things add up to a friendly, fast, responsive request answerer. it’s just going to get worse if i don’t tackle these now, so why don’t i just buckle down and do them? what’s wrong with me today?
i dreamed about family, grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, mom and dad… there was so much going on. someone had just died or we were planning for someone’s near death. i think i was going to move in to my mom’s parents’ house, but was it after they left it or was i going to share with them? i can’t say i was disappointed when the alarm woke me this morning. whatever was going on, it was hard.
i need to do laundry. i put off getting the w/d from mom and dad for christmas, because i’ve been thinking of moving somewhere closer to the train station and less expensive. i mean, if i’m never home, what’s the use of having a fabulous apartment, right? but then i realized how expensive it would be to move. deposits and truck rentals and hiring movers and boxes and all the time and applications… i think it’s better for me to stay where i am for a while longer.
ok, enough complaining and day dreaming and babbling. i’ve got to get to this list or requests… right after i get some water and some red vines.