A Treasure Found at Home

the one big thing, my friend j is getting better. he ended up in the hospital with pnemonia; i went to visist him and kept making him laugh, which made him cough, which didn’t look fun. but, he’s on top of it and should be right as rain soon.

on to the small

☕ wee children with wee balloons

☕ carrot cake for breakfast

☕ crafty chicka book (now i can’t wait for my sewing machine to come home)

☕ close library for easy quiet study space

☕ offer of free pass to maker faire in exchange for helping at minnie’s craft booth

i spent this memorial day, as i have the last several memorial days, up north at the ranch. it was especially nice to get away from it all this year.

☕ campfires

☕ time to read

☕ remembered warmy things for the tent and was not cold at night

☕ crazy amounts of birds making crazy amounts of bird noises

☕ the tiniest frogs EVAR!

☕ pond

☕ sunshine

☕ roasted marshmallows

☕ time to talk and hang out with grown ups

☕ watching a certain five year old play, draw, and cuddle the baby penguin i gave her

today’s random mind training reminder was “A deep and quiet joy is always present when your internal peace is such that you aren’t disturbed or thrown into confusion by events in the world or by your own thoughts and feelings.”

obviously, i’m still working on it. still thrown into confusion by my thoughts. yesterday i decided that confusion or no, i was going to get started. step 0.5: rent a larger storage space. i wasn’t looking forward to it: more money out when i have so much less coming in. it didn’t seem like a sound financial decision but how else could i get the house in shape for appraisal and market? so, i prayed it wouldn’t be for long and headed down to the storage place where i found out that renting storage space on the second floor is MUCH less expensive than renting on the first.

☕ i got twice the storage space for ≈$10 more
☕ garma helped me move most of my stuff from the old to the new before she had to go to work
☕ i got the whole move between storage spaces completed in one day (including sweeping out the old one)
☕ lunch with mo
☕ evening drinks and dinner with tim
☕ tamarindo margarita – yum!

when i get really stressed, my left ear hurts. it has to do with tension in some muscle that runs up from my shoulder. i used to think i was getting an ear infection, but after a few courses of antibiotics and a little observation of my circumstances i put two and two together.

today i have that ear ache. as usual, it took me some time to figure out what was going on — did i get an ear infection from being in the shower too long? no, duh, my whole life is up in the air. but, all is not lost.

☕ i have some damn fine tea

☕ have plan to rent larger storage area so i can empty out the house and get it ready to show

☕ lots of music on tv last night

☕ hulu — i missed the last 5 min of glee but got to see it this morning

☕ lunch today with my friend maureen

i only say “the adventure of a lifetime” because the adventure i’m in right now is really the same adventure i’m always in, just with a little more intensity about getting to the end.

i’m having to make a lot of decisions right now. do i try to keep the house? do i sell the house and stay in the area? do i sell the house and move to another, less expensive state? do i stay in tech or do i try to find some other career… one with less typing and more hands on, less eye strain from monitors and more of some other strain i’m not aware of yet?

i’m trying really hard to keep sight of the good in the situation:

☕ i have total freedom in that i’m not dating and have no children
☕ my parents can help financially for a little while
☕ i have some work (it could be no work)
☕ it’s summer ~ sunshine, (some) warmth, outdoor time
☕ i have more time to learn new skills and improve the skills i already have
☕ stress makes me want to eat less, so i won’t spend as much on food (ok, yeah, that one’s a stretch.)